Post Tamat Exam...

Salam Alaik....

*Minta maaf Cik Ara,curi tajuk post kamu...kekeringan idea*

Block 3 melabuhkn tirainye semalam...alhamdulillah,semuanye berjalan lancar ketika exam...walopun,x sempat wat past year,at least my answer in the sheet is better than the previous block..hope so...*kecuali pracs Bichem..huhu*

Ni la summary utk blok ini....

Anatomy......
sama saje seperti dulu....cume kali ini busy belajar organ(viscera) instead of muscle..*benci muscle*...cume,disebabkn markahku yg sgtla rendah utk 2 block sebelum ni(a.k.a fail)..maka,tersadai la akoo seorg2 budak melayu di table one(table utk budak2 bodo anatomy)...haha..enjoy dok table nie....mereka sume lepak2 saje...bile kene tnye,sume org xtaw jawapan...haha...no pressure at all.....

bak kata Arvend,"relax macha,we in table one,how low can we go after this?so..chill" hahaha

tp,bukan sumenye happy2 belaka ye..setiap mggu ade test...smarttt!!! x cukup dgn test,ade viva lagi...SMARTTT!!!...lom habes lg,setiap kali sebelom kelas dissection hall,all of us will be bombarded with anatomy question,and as details as possible ever answer is a must...haha!! table2 laen?mereka lebeh diberi 'kebebasan' drpd kami sume...huhu

Akoo x penah wat notes..tp,blok ni kne wat notes,bia cepat igt......diaphragm pon akoo lukis!!

Relations of duodenum...sume akoo lukis!! sentiasa kne tnye....dan kne paksa lukis..huhu...ade hikmahnye..huhu(akoo paksa diri lukis sume bnde ni)

Physio...
Kisahnye hampir same saje dgn anatomy(cume markahnye lebeh elok,walopon tetap buruk)...bukannye x phm,cume lebeh sesuai saya katekan kesilapan dr sendiri yg x cr ubat utk penyakit yg sgt2 susah utk diubati...*MALAS*..maka,dgn paksaan mentorku(lecturer physio juge)..kerahan tenaga terpaksa dijana,demi 70 mrkah yg ditetapkn oleh beliau sebagai bench mark utk blok ini...huhu

Cume sbhgian sahaja notes ini drpd lecturer,yg laen kebanyakan akoo salin drpd pelbagai buku,bukan satu jenis buku sahaja...tebalnye??macam buku teks Sejarah F5....

Biochem...
Aku xde byk masalah dgn subject ini,walopon akoo tido dlm kelas,tetapi markahnye sedang-sedang gitu....dan blok ini,x byk sgt yg dipelajari berbanding dgn blok 2...huhu...

Histology....
ARGGGGGHHHHH!!!!! Proses 'penterjemahan" di atas lembaran buku histo itu sgt2 menyakitkan hati...satu lukisan kadangkala memakan masa berjam-jam lamenye utk disiapkn... setiap mggu,2-3 lukisan perlu disetelkan...alahai,pensel?? Tuhan je tahu betapa sakitnye hati meggunakan pensel buatan India..huhu

Lukisan camni,2 jam baru siap...ye 2 JAM!!

Walopon sr busy berkata yg blok ni adalah 'scoring block'...namun,padaku sume block same je...mmg benar,jika hendak dibanding dgn bolck2 sebelum ini..yg ni lebeh mudah,tp...tnpa usaha...xkan jadi pape...moga2 semangat akoo kuat utk terus begini hingga Universiti Exam...

Salam...PEACE

Declaration...

Salam Alaik...

I knew..one day,I need to write this...
I knew..I need to spill everything out...
I knew when that day come,I'll need to make everything clear,as clear as the running river....
And I knew it will be a suicide act as I'm not used to do something like this...
But as the time concern...I need to do it...


Yes..everyone saw or in better word 'witnessed' the closeness between us....
I can not blame all of you because of your words based on what you have seen ...
I simply can not accuse all of you for throwing all the hot gossip between us....
I simply can not stop all of you to indulge in your curiousity to think about the real relationship between us....
Yes...You guys have the right and I never put the blame on you....

Yes...long time ago,for once I consider her as a special person in my life...
Yes...I admitted that once I put her among the utmost position in my heart...
Yes...I admitted that I'll become a completely different person when I'm in front of her...not a tipical me that all of you already pictured in your mind...
Yes...the surrounding will be completely changed if she was around...at least for me...
Yes...I will always,or if can not,I'll try to be as happy as I can when I'm with her....
Yes..I knew in your mind rite now...she completely changed me into a new person...

But,it was long time before...the day where I saw her as a very nice and good girl...
A girl with a fragile heart but a strong will...
But,since she unveil the 'new' her in front of me..
truthfully,my heart crushed into pieces...
And at that moment,my feelings to her completely altered...it does feel like the world turned upside down

It opens my blind eyes how cruel and unexpected the world can be..
It does shows how weak she is to withstand the lure of beauty offered by the Westerner...
She's no longer the person that I've ever thought of...
I knew she has a very fragile heart inside there that always need guidence from someone else...
And I always show her the path of light in a slightest way when we talked to each other...
But still,she changes...

That moment of truth really taught me a lot...
The fake smile always carved on my face,even when she asked me how does she looks...
I even give advices about her new look...although deep in my heart I never want to do it...but I just can't help it..
I never want to hurt her feelings....
How pathetic person i am...I simply can not accept my own act...
It certainly does unveil the truth about her...
Her will of power is not as strong as I ever thought...
Her fragile heart make me wonders how to approach or in other words to save her from the darkness....
And yes,due to my lack of courage and my mere stupidity...I lost the game even before it started

Yes,it will be cruel to write it off just as easy as it looks like because of so-called lame reason for most of you will think of....
But,I'm a guy with a strong principle and believe in my life...
If she can not keep something that is an obligatory for her,how will she face the challenging outside world?
She is old enough to differentiate what is right,and what is wrong...
And she knew that I hate the 'new' her...as I've talked a lot about it with her...
But,she still do it...
My heart crushed into pieces because of that...not merely as someone special(at least)for me,but as a friend,that changes is certainly not acceptable by me....
I'm simply can not accept that....until now...

The relationship that my friends always think happen between us is just a pigment of imagination....
I've lost the faith of believe on her,and at the same time she already got the apple of her eyes...
And she shared her 'happiest' moment in her life with me as she believed I'm as one of her 'best friend' that knew her a lot....
I appreciated her willingness to share...I certainly does....
At least her so-called 'best friend' here have the reason to forget her...

Let's put the end of this meaningless stanza of words...
Right now,I would like to declare...
The relationship that you guys always think of,is not real...it's not even started..
Maybe,it is bad news for all of you...
But,sincerely it's the best for me...and I'm feeling great...
The status as so-called 'best friend' is better for my ear,as well for my heart...
And there is no need for all of you to worry about me...
Internally I a strong guy...as officially nothing happened between us...
It just a story of a close relationship between two 'best friend' =)



ps:ak dedicate lagu Saleem kat playlist tu utk post nie....=)

I will!! dont worry...

Slowly...I'm crawling...
Slowly...I'm climbing up the hill...
Slowly...I'm jumping up the hurdle in front of me...
Slowly...I'm catching up you guys there...
And slowly...I'm reaching there...

I know it was mistake...
I know it was my fault...
I know that I should done it better...
I know that I'm more than capable to achieve it easily...
Let's bygone be bygone...

No matter how slow,I'll do it...
No matter how much dirt I'll get,I'll do it...
No matter how much scar I'll get,I don't mind...
No matter how much time I need to spent,I'm willing to sacrifice it...
No matter how much things I'll need to write,I'll write...
No matter how much tiring is it..I'll never give up...

So...
Don't ever worry about me...
Or even slightest feeling of sympathy...
Thou it meant that you were concerned...
For me it's harsh...I'm sorry...

It's pathetic and awful feeling...

Besar maknanya kehadiran anak bulan itu =)

Salam Alaik...

Selamat Hari Raya kepada sume rakan2 ku..xkira yg jauh atau dekat....=)
Mungkin agak terlambat bg aku bg ucapan nie,namun ianya adalah atas sebab2 yg x dpt dielakkan(laptop ade problem rr...)

Well,raye tahun ni adalah raya pertamaku di perantauan...di Manipal,India...huhu...well,to be honest,akoo x rase sedeh lgsg pg raye,even bile kol family kat malaysia bole gelak2 lg...haha....akoo maseh igt lg dialog bapaku kepadaku...

Aku : "Semayang Raya camne bah??"

Bapaku : "Camtu gak la...haha..ko nk taw Long,Abah g semayang raye td pakai baju Punjabi yg ko poskn tu...bangla kat sebelah jeling semacam jek...mane x nye,baju dorg plain,baju Abah berkilat2....hahahaha"

Gelak besar akoo bersama bapaku...

Bapaku : "Raya camne long??best??"
Aku : "lom raye lg la bah,kat sini sok baru raye...huhu...anak bulan segan nk keluar agaknye"
Bapaku : "HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! padan muka!! kene pose lg sehari...hahaha...org da raye,ko kne pose lg....xpe2..kasi cukup pose tu 30 ari ek...."
Aku : "HAHAHAHHA!! org kat sini bengong...kalo ye pon nk postpone raye,bgto la awal2..ni da kol 11 bru bgto...pe daa....."
Bapaku : "sabor je la...abah nk g makan dodol nie..jgn jeles..HAHAHAHAHA"

So,di Manipal ktorg pon wat la majlis sendr...byk dugaan woo....malas nk tulih dugaan tersebut,tp utk makluman lebih lanjut,leh klik kat sini =)

So,da bace kn??hee....kalo rajin,klik lg di sini....yg ni mmg betol2 dugaan..huhu

Raya tahun ni sgt best walopon jauh di dr family & sanak saudara...dugaan2 yg dtg tnpa diduga itu bukan sahaja telah mematangkn kami sume,B24 di sini malahan ia juga telah mengeratkn lg tali silaturrahim kami....
Kalo sebelum nie cume jeling2,senyum2 tnpa bertegur sapa dek kerana malu walopon da kenal lame sejak zaman KTT,namun kehadiran Syawal yg walopon lmbt sehari itu tlh menguatkan lg ikatan persahabatan antara kami....=0

Sungguh!! Syawal kali ini sungguh bermakna walopon x dpt bersame-same dgn rakan2 ku di Davangere....huhu..aku mmg teringin nk ke sana sebenarnye,namun beraya di sini lebih bermakna...

So,moral of the story....

1. Mizah-->dy ni bukannye cold-blooded gurl with an icy-cold behaviour....cume jrg senyum jek,kalo senyum sokmo,msti cute la....haha...x psl2 blushing lak minah tu nnt..haha...Mizah,senyum2 la selalu ok!!
2. McD-->KO LA CHEF PLG HEBAT SEKALI!! sedap giler do rendang daging ko....akoo da jatuh cinta dgn rendang daging ko....huhu....
3. Jue-->ni same kes cam Si Mizah la jugak.....jeling org cam nk membunuh je...huhu...tp,sebagai pembantu setia McD,dy sporting n ceria sebenarnye....
4. Mirae-->x psl2 jd mak mertua akoo sebab akoo mintak resepi kek batik dgn dy...tp,serius,kek batik dy sedap weyh!! dpt sambutan hangat mase raye...gua tabik sama lu...haha..baju raye dy?pergh..meletup!
   
5. Mun-->cian si Mun,diberi tugasan yg bukannye dy biasa wat..huhu...sebenarnye Mun,akoo biasa wat kaen rentang & akoo mintak maap sebab x volunteer dr dulu....sebenarnye,akoo bg can kat ko rase camne nk wat & handle bende tuh...best kn?hahaha...n complicated too..haha...btw,ko org yg sgt senang menerima nasihat & cadanagan drpd org laen...
6. Mus-->akoo mati2 igt ko nie mmg species yg serius,n x leh wat gurau lebeh2...rupe-rupenye,dua kali lima dgn akoo.....haha...sgt best borak dgn Mus..=) "sedeyh weyh..sedeyh weyh"..tu je la ayat yg dy ulang bile dpt taw raye postpone..haha..kelakar giler...
7. Ara-->sgt2 berkaliber...akoo tabik dgn ko....huhu..btw,baju raya ko lawa..akoo sgt2 suke..=0
   
8. Arifah-->ko la org yg plg x mengerti erti penat lelah...sggp stay smpy pagi nk siapkn kaen rentang..x putus2 bg idea lak tuh....sporting!! =)
9. Amy-->sgt2 bole diharap!! bg ape keje pon setel....
10. Ina-->ko adalah kanak2 ribena! sgt2 riang....hahaha.....opps! sorry,akoo x taw ko x taw masak..huhu...
11. Safiah--> walopon cara ko wat nasi impit tu sgt laen dr yg laen,naseb baek nasi tu leh makan..hahaha
12. Syikin-->sedap gak sore ko ek...hahaha

Yg laen2 yg xde dlm list tuh sorry la yeh..korg pon best gak!! thanx guys for making this Raya as one of the most memorable,sweet and unforgettable Raya I ever had!!